I would love to be able to watch our Edik sleep, give him his bottle, change his diaper, rock him to sleep, but I can't yet. So instead, I am learning to feel differently about things like appreciating opportunities to get up and take care of my other children during the night. I think about how lucky we are to have each other. I try to take a few extra minutes to cuddle, sing a quiet song, or rock them in the chair. I think about my baby boy and the many other babies who do not have a mommy to comfort them when they wake in the night.
We found out this week that our paperwork made it safely to Ukraine, yay!!! Also, I submitted our homestudy to our county's family court! We should be getting it back this week. Then, we get to send it to USCIS (Immigration) for approval. The hardest part about this process is that I want to know how Edik is doing. However, because of the nature of this process, I don't get to know that. So, I focus on what I do have some control over-- paperwork.
I continue to be amazed that there seem to be such kind people everywhere that I go. The people at the family court clerk's office entertained My Assistant while they processed our homestudy petition. They let him do the paper recycling and gave him a book to look at (and keep). One of the women there even distracted him out of the tantrum he threw when he didn't want to leave.
As I was driving to the courthouse, My Assitant and I were listening to some primary music (religious children's songs). My favorite song came on and the last verse took on a very precious meaning for me.
"He is always near me, though I do not see him there.
And because he loves me dearly, I am in his watchful care.
So, I'll be the kind of person that I know I'd like to be;
If I could see the Savior standing nigh, watching over me."
It was so comforting to be reminded that the sweet baby boy we are so anxious to meet is in the watchful care of our loving Savior.